[ Incredibly horrifying. Though, Ras doesn't really mind. Perhaps he's just used to waking up in said case that he hasn't registered it as "odd" at all. He does tilt his head at Vildred, though. He's so little here... how is it possible that this small human grows up later to be such a big human?
(Also, why the fuck can he see all this? He didn't go back in time, otherwise he'd be IN the box? Right???)
He walks over to where baby Vildred is, reaching out to try and pat his head, but as he tries, the memory fades to glittering lights, and suddenly Ras' hand is instead... against Vildred's chest. His Vildred.
Oh.
He blinks, the backdrop of the fog and forest finally coming back into view. ]
...You truly did not like the church even so small, did you?
[What a cringy childhood memory to have shown his boyfriend noooooo—
Vildred's face flushes, and he clears his throat.]
That was the start of it, yeah. I was always arguing with the nuns and my folks about you. I thought it was weird... no, I still think it's weird that they had to open up the case to kiss you. I think it's weird they kept you in a glass case like a toy in general.
[He plops his hand down on Ras' head. Time to pet Ras.]
I think me being a kid thinking this was ridiculous is where it started. I didn't have a reason to think that, I just drew the conclusion on my own and became a hellion every time we went to church.
They are showing their reverence for Goddess Diche through me. I never minded - it is not as though mortals can speak with her. [ Hell, even Ras doesn't really get to speak with her that often. ]
They're showing it in freakish and increasingly absurd ways. There's a guy that— you don't know him yet I don't think, but there's this fucking guy— don't say that— a priest named Morfid who steals your hair and hides under your bed. I don't think that counts as worshipping Diche at that point.
[Angry angry angry angry-]
But, uh, humans do that. I mean, I'm taller than a lot of humans are, but that's still something that happens. I was about average height for a child my age back then, and I only really shot up like that during puberty.
I am not one to tell someone how they can or can't worship. It is important for people to express their faith in ways they find comfort with. I am a fragment of the goddess, so that surely confuses people how to respond to my presence in general. It is why Diche crafted this form like so - she wanted me to be as far less intimidating as I can be so people would not fear me.
More than that... I am also meant to be someone who saves Orbis. People are... They are told that I will, as well. Not that there is a chance I will fail, nor that there will be loss along the way, nor that I am only barely strong enough to fight the Archdemon alone, but that I will defeat him and bring peace.
...
I think it is safe to imagine people might act "freakish and absurd" when their hope starts to wane.
[ He gently stands onto his toes and presses a kiss against Vildred's lips. ]
It does make me happy to know... even so small, you were worried about me.
I still think they should try to treat you like a human, or at least, if they're going to treat you as divine... not manhandle you like you're cattle.
[Sighs, but he'll take this kiss. Ras really has to reach to do it... it's cute. Ras is cute.
Pet Ras.]
I was sort of unruly... and yeah, I really was worried you would suffocate in that glass, and was always mad on your behalf. I remember really wanting to talk to you while you were asleep, but obviously you couldn't respond... and then you woke up, and in each of my lives, I got to talk to you, and stand at your side. I guess fate sort of has a way, doesn't it?
I do not believe they knew what I was. A fragment of a goddess meant for war - many saw me as an end of their hardships, and others as simply a weapon. But I never minded.
[ He gently presses a kiss against Vildred's chin as fingers gently trace over the familiar touch of Vildred's cheek, hesitating only briefly as he reaches the scar that spans his face, then pulls away with that gentle smile of his. ]
I always had you, after all. And you always got to see me as I am, truly. That made me happy enough to not mind any other treatment.
...
I am so happy to have always have you. I... do genuinely fear the kind of person I would have become without you.
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(Also, why the fuck can he see all this? He didn't go back in time, otherwise he'd be IN the box? Right???)
He walks over to where baby Vildred is, reaching out to try and pat his head, but as he tries, the memory fades to glittering lights, and suddenly Ras' hand is instead... against Vildred's chest. His Vildred.
Oh.
He blinks, the backdrop of the fog and forest finally coming back into view. ]
...You truly did not like the church even so small, did you?
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Vildred's face flushes, and he clears his throat.]
That was the start of it, yeah. I was always arguing with the nuns and my folks about you. I thought it was weird... no, I still think it's weird that they had to open up the case to kiss you. I think it's weird they kept you in a glass case like a toy in general.
[He plops his hand down on Ras' head. Time to pet Ras.]
I think me being a kid thinking this was ridiculous is where it started. I didn't have a reason to think that, I just drew the conclusion on my own and became a hellion every time we went to church.
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How did you grow so big from something so small?
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[Angry angry angry angry-]
But, uh, humans do that. I mean, I'm taller than a lot of humans are, but that's still something that happens. I was about average height for a child my age back then, and I only really shot up like that during puberty.
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More than that... I am also meant to be someone who saves Orbis. People are... They are told that I will, as well. Not that there is a chance I will fail, nor that there will be loss along the way, nor that I am only barely strong enough to fight the Archdemon alone, but that I will defeat him and bring peace.
...
I think it is safe to imagine people might act "freakish and absurd" when their hope starts to wane.
[ He gently stands onto his toes and presses a kiss against Vildred's lips. ]
It does make me happy to know... even so small, you were worried about me.
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[Sighs, but he'll take this kiss. Ras really has to reach to do it... it's cute. Ras is cute.
Pet Ras.]
I was sort of unruly... and yeah, I really was worried you would suffocate in that glass, and was always mad on your behalf. I remember really wanting to talk to you while you were asleep, but obviously you couldn't respond... and then you woke up, and in each of my lives, I got to talk to you, and stand at your side. I guess fate sort of has a way, doesn't it?
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[ He gently presses a kiss against Vildred's chin as fingers gently trace over the familiar touch of Vildred's cheek, hesitating only briefly as he reaches the scar that spans his face, then pulls away with that gentle smile of his. ]
I always had you, after all. And you always got to see me as I am, truly. That made me happy enough to not mind any other treatment.
...
I am so happy to have always have you. I... do genuinely fear the kind of person I would have become without you.